One Month to go....

In January, a buyer put a contract on the house
and a portion of the ranch.
While I am so very torn between my feelings, I move forward. This is my first time to make such a huge decision alone. I must admit I am terrified. Sometimes I actually get sick at my stomach.
Once the decision was actually made and I began to move forward, then came the stress. With the help from Michele, I found a precious house in town. If all goes as planned
I will be moving mid April! 

So much to be done and so so stressful. It seems things were better for a while and now my feeling are all back to the surface. I look out over the ranch and think of the dreams John and I had. They were so short lived but I must remember, at least we lived them. We worked side by side building this ranch. We laughed, we fought, we worked, we played and we made alot of love. We watched the the skies at night and explored over every foot of our land. But now life off the dirt road is not the same. This was OUR dream, and without John, I am just lonely and isolated. But I have beautiful memories. They will be mine forever. What a wonderful chapter in the book of my life. My heart will forever be fuller for having John Murphy in it. I am so grateful to have lived a dream and shared it with the man I loved. I didn't want it to end, but God had a different plan. The sooner I accept that and find a new dream, the sooner I will find peace and happiness again. I am working on it.

God give me strength and patience.

That is my prayer every night.

More babies

To my surprise, a young heifer had a calf. I have been expected the big black/white cow to calve any day, so I have keeping an eye on her. So when I got home and felt something was different, I noticed a precious new calf in a low area of the ranch. I saw the young heifer near and thought, "what is she doing so close to the calf"? Where is the momma? Then I realize, SHE is the momma. Incredible how these animals handle everything alone. I am so grateful for their Independence and self sufficiency but it still amazes me. This new calf is a little bull.

 

And his young momma

 

 

I am keeping my eye on the older cow and wait to find another surprise. I hope and pray everything goes good....again. I never take for granted the miracle of birth.

Then there is the chickens! Again I thought I had a missing hen. For a few weeks I did not see her. I was still getting eggs from the hen house so I wasn't too worried. But to my surprise, the missing hen made her debut on a bright Sunday morning with 8 little chirping chicks! So very cute.

Life on a farm is full of surprises, work, happiness, sadness, excitement.....did I say work? ALL of this and more.

Welcome Miss Amy

What a blessing. February 13, 2013 at 110:01 am, my daughter Michele, gave birth to her first child.

A precious baby girl, Amy Kay Carswell.

 My cup runnith over.

Mother and daughter are doing very well. The first month has been spent adjusting and bonding. Those first few weeks are so special and new. Everyone learning their new roles. So many hugs and smiles. Sleepless nights and tired days. That's where Meemaw comes in. I have been taking time off work to spend helping in any way I can. Lots of time rocking and patting and kissing my newest grand-daughter.

                           Today Miss Amy is 1 month old!

I give thanks that both mother and child are healthy and happy. God is great!